This weekend is unlikely to happen again

Last night, at around 23:45, I kissed my wife goodbye, shouldered my backpack and set off into the darkness. I used my bicycle to follow a well known route to a town some 20 kilometers away, to join my mother, my brother and his girlfriend, to watch my father die.

No death comes expected. No parting is ever easy. But as I held him, while he struggled with all the energy he had left just to swallow a painkiller, I figured that sometimes it's maybe just not worth it anymore. Sometimes a person has to admit that life is not life worth living, and that death is our kinder option. Maybe even a friend. A friend who scares us, since he does not share our common desires or fears, and discards them as irrelevant, for life is life and that is signified by a beginning and thus, by an ending as well. And that is what he is there for.

This morning around nine o'clock, that ending came for my father.


I wrote the above the evening of the my father died. Since then, we've been through quite an odd week. We managed to do well, as a family. The whole thing has come to pretty good ending, regarding the circumstances. No doubt I'll be feeling some grief and pain along the way, but that is just what life is about. Like my mother said: "pregnancy and birth, death and disease, those are things that make life unique."

Ashes to ashes, you know the drill.

Switch that Cruel Barb...

....To your main hand and whoomp up goes the damage. Daggers are bad, I have learned from reading some rogue tips, by some actual rogues.

Still at level 19, will do some levelling in the weekend probably. WoW is no longer the priority it once was and I'm glad. Right now, my daughters are the most important thing in my life, period. My dying father, man, what can I say? It sucks, it sucks harder than anything ever before but I can't do anything.

There are so many things I could worry about. But I've learned that worrying just drains energy, and it never solves anything. So I try not to and get on with things.

Holy Schmoly

So, to keep things short, Holy sucks. Leveling as holy sucks, alliance sucks etcetera. Good thing I have my horde alts. Went for the heirloom PvP shoulders, rolled a fresh belf rogue and I'm enjoying myself so far. There's a priest in the making too, maybe after four years I'm finally ready to roll something else than a paladin -.-

The name? Solidninja...

I just wanted to get started ok? It sucks, but it has some Metal Gear in it and it has ninja in it so it works out on a certain level. It probably impresses the kids too. Or the elderly.

I need a name change :(